Gorgeous Hell

2010年8月6日星期五

my first time experienced failure!

How you felt the feeling of failure? I am here to tell you when I feel the first time of failure. I feel my first time of failure was when I was 3 years old. My mother and father were separated each other. My father was bigger than my mother by 30 years old. Their romance was so amazing. Me, writing this essay is an accident.
What was the reason my father and mother were separated? This was because, long time ago my father was a rich man. But when he divorced with his first wife, his wife had already taken half of his fortune. But my father still did not know how to control using money. So, when my father met my mother he was still like that. My mother always persuaded my father to control himself. My father always used the money for alcohol, women, cigarettes. My mother was still waiting for my father to change. But my father did not know how to appreciate my mother. Every time he drank, he hit my mother. There was one time, he used a super big vase to hit my mother. He caused my mother’s head to bleed. A lot of blood came out. This was the reason why my grandparents were very angry. They wanted my mother to leave my father after my father hit my mother. I was only 3 years old. So, my mother decided to leave my father.
When my father knew my mother wanted to leave, he was very angry. So, he brought me along to live in Kuala Lumpur. He brought me to Sabah. Actually Sabah was my hometown. My mother used a lot of money to hire a lawyer to find me. Finally, when I was 6 years old, my father returned me to my mother. My mother, at that time, was already married with my stepfather. They were married because my mother was pregnant. So, my mother left me at my aunt’s house to study primary school. Suddenly, when I was in standard 4 my mother told me that she wanted me go to another aunt’s house. When I went to the aunt’s house, I always fought with the aunt. When I was in standard 6 my mother asked me to come home to live with her and my stepfather. I was afraid. Suddenly I had to change to a new place.
So, finally I moved back to my mother’s house. I started to know my stepfather and mt stepsister. My stepfather was a very bad person. My grandfather told me what my stepfather did when my mother was pregnant. He had sex with the house maid. He betrayed my mother. And there was a rumour that the maid was also pregnant, and gave birth to a daughter. My mother even knew the truth but she didn’t fight with him.There was one day, he was talking to me. Suddenly, he tried to use his hand to put on my shoulder, after that he touched my breast. HE WAS MOLESTING ME! Then my mother saw it. My mother scolded him until she wanted to punch him. And my stepfather did not feel guilty at all. I moved to my grandfather’s house. I lived with my grandfather for 4 years. Sometimes, I would go back to my mother’s house to have dinner. My stepfather did not talk to me at all. That was so good. Last year, my grandfather passed away because of stomach cancer. So, I needed to move back to my mother’s house. Now, he talked to me sometimes, but, fortunately, he did not touch me again. My stepfather was really a super stupid man. He wasted RM 200 to buy a fake handphone. I really don’t know like him.
And this was the first time, I experienced failure. I was three years old and my world began to fall apart!

2010年8月2日星期一

crazy about 파스타~

Haiz~long time didn't online already~busy of TWITTER~and now i was crazy a korean drama~' 파스타'~

The character of 파스타 all also very nice~! Recently got something make me very angry lar~ All about our class 5 GEMILANG! Haiz~speechless~don't want to say so much~Hope he will know what's wrong he did!I don't know why he will become like that?!feel sad~NEXT WEEK GOT EXAM!!! i haven't start study~T_T~I going to die already~

2010年6月21日星期一

U-KISS Fans Meeting

2010/06/19,Today was a lucky day.Because i'm the crew of U-KISS Fans Meeting..>_<

Erm...not very busy,but really happy...^_^ Today also have a bit problem lar...but at last the show still very success lar...They really HANDSOME.....especially Eli!!!!!!!!!! The whole show i keep shouting Eli's name~~I swear when he singing the love song,he was looking my eyes...OMG~>__<...how stupis i am..?!

2010年6月17日星期四

停电！！！

2010年06月17日，my friend are coming to my house for additional mathematics project.Okay~Koon mun is the first want reach my house,then Hazman,Jeng Yih.The most late of course is Man Yee lor...when all the friend reach already we do nothing...So....we GAMBLING...Ahaha~Koon mun is the first want bankrupt...after than is Hazman...Firstly is Man yee win more money de~but at last the winner is ME!!! At 2 o'clock something we WALK to Jusco for check up the price... because our project is Price Index!!!We reach Jusco already,Koon Mun,Jeng Yih and Hazman want to eat lunch...Then Koon Mun say want to eat KFC lor...so we just follow~~~After that,each people order one set...except Man Yee and Me...We OPEN OUR EYES LOOK they eat....Haiz~~After that we go to check up the egg's price...when we discuss the egg's brand...suddenly眼前黑漆漆一片...原来是停电...After that,Koon Mun's mother come to fetch us go back home...but before go back home Koon Mun's mother want to 'belanjar' us eat dessert wor...so we just follow lor...but we at chinese restaurant,so Hazman say he cannot see PORK...Haiz...also did't call him go to eat...swt=.=
after finish our dessert,Koon Mun's mom fetch us back lor...but Man Yee,Jeng Yih and Hazman still wait at my house...because later they mother will come to fetch them back...then we GAMBLING again~~~ play until crazy arh~~at 6 o'clock something they went back...quite happy they come to house...

2010年6月15日星期二

大日子

2010年6月15日，我妈没有做工。留在家，提早做大日子。因为今天没空庆祝端午节。我已起身没多久，敏儿就打电话来。讲鸿霖叫我们去喝茶。Okay lor...就约在一点。
一点到了，我和敏儿就走路去Pappa Rich。当然Pappa Rich 离我家很近，到了那里我们就谈天咯。大概到了3点多我们就回家了。

～那个笨蛋鸿霖拍我可爱的零钱包～
回到家，我妈邀敏儿在我们家吃晚餐。结果，他就在我们家吃晚餐咯。不过因为他要提早走，所以我们就提早吃饭。我妈的老公就发脾气了！他该死的！！！不要吃啦！最好去吃大便！！！

2010年6月13日星期日

Raining Day

下雨天，我的最爱。整个天都暗暗的，令人感觉很舒服。感觉只想躺在床上，盖上绵绵的被。在伤心的时候望着窗外，心情都平静下来了。

假期了，有时候会出去帮我妈妈看店。那天，下了一场暴风雨。没生意，大家就坐下来喝茶和谈些八卦。

～买汽车零件的老板娘～

～卖水果的‘啊聪’～

～我老妈子～

～买经济面的‘啊珠’～

～还有在一旁偷拍的我～

说真的，在我妈的摊口整天都有五颜六色的八卦。我才发现原来有很多东西是我们意想不到的。

～很像四叶草的东西～
那天被我无意间拍到的。

2010年6月7日星期一

2009年第十五届“暖流”回忆录！

2009 年12月17日，我到敏儿家住宿一夜。因为 18日没有人可以载我去Bukit Jalil LRT 站，所以只好去敏儿家住咯~
2009年12月18日，早上五点半我跟敏儿就起身。准备东西出发去火车站。到了差不多八点十五分我们就到巴士总站会家营，然后就开始出发啦～到了马六甲生活营已经要十二点了，明显我们是迟到。连大合照都没得拍，只好匆忙去我们的组别（事先已经分好）。我是第十四组（妹妹组）的，我的组很热情。过后就马上开始炮战游戏了～